Life can change in a split second

Here I've been in a bad mood for days for no good reason.  I am tremendously blessed and I need to be thankful for my many blessings.  My friend's little boy has been diagnosed with a brain tumor.  Their life just went from sailing happily along to worried for his life.  What a shocker and what a change of pace.  I pray for this dear little boy.  May he recover from surgery quickly, and may it not be cancer, and may he have no long term problems as a result of the tumor or the surgery to remove it.

I am going to try not to complain any more about the daily grind of my life.  I am going to cherish every moment with my kids, even when they won't give me 30 seconds of peace.  Go hug your kids and play a game with them because you never know how long you have with them.

My last past was really mean

I'm in a really, really bad mood today.  I should not jump to conclusions based on the behavior of those dropping off or picking kids up from school.  I do feel bad for the poor kids however.

To be single and childless again

I confess, I spent a good portion of the weekend wondering why on earth I ever got married and had 4 children.  My beloved and 4 treasures all were driving me nuts.  I think I'm a bit hormonal as well.  I am back to realizing how blessed I am today.

Totally different topic:  There is a direct correlation between test scores and the parents dropping the kids off in front of the school.  Tip of the day:  When dropping your child off at school, do not stop dead in the middle of the road and then let your child run across said road without looking.  Chances are excellent that you have ticked someone off by blocking the road while you not only dropped your child off, but sat there having a conversation with him, and that person may be finally passing you because they are tired of waiting.  Good thing that angry person has good breaks.  For your child's sake, take the time to pull off the road, into one of the many parking spaces in front of the school.  This is a much safer option for your child and much kinder to those who happen to be driving down the road.

What is wrong with me?

I never set out to get something from this person when I did things for her.  I babysat her kids for over a year for free, just an hour or so a day and our kids played well together so it was no big deal.  I took her family food when she was sick, I went over to watch the kids in the middle of the night when they had to go to the hospital (I had forgotten about this, her daughter reminded me).  It is just what neighbors and friends do, right?  

So, why am I hurt by her lack of response to me now?  I send her an email asking if she can help me out with something small and simple and she sends her daughter over to say "My mom can probably do that."  Then I never hear anything more and she doesn't do that.  I had not expected her to and I made other arrangements that were kind of a pain, but such is life sometimes.  I'm not going to go beg on her door step.  If she can't help, that is fine but a response would be nice, you know.  This isn't the first time something like this has happened.    

The neighbors all think I'm nuts.  I make my kids wear bike helmets, and I only let them jump on trampolines one at a time, and I make them ride in boosters until the adult seat belt actually fits them.  For this, I'm a safety freak.  That didn't used to bother me but it does now.  Mostly because I get questioned on why I feel the way I do and then when I tell them because it is safer they take offense like I'm looking down on them for not having the same requirements.  I never said that, they assume that.  Why is it that I'm judgmental simply because I have different rules?  Or beliefs? Or standards?  It is other people making assumptions.  I hate that.  I'm not going to change because someone is offended by what they think I think. 

I'm a jumbled, confused mess much of the time.  I don't get why I'm bothered by people ignoring me.  I don't get why people make assumptions.  I don't get why those assumptions bother me.  I don't get why those assumptions are starting to make me judgmental toward those who make them.  What is wrong with me?

Let me introduce myself.

Hi, I'm Suz.  I've been married to my beloved for 16 years and I have 4 wonderful daughters.   The Teen is quite creative and a quirky artsy type.  The Pre-teen is a tomboy.  The Kid is a social butterfly.  The Baby is our little dictator.   We also have an old dog and a kitten.  Life is busy, crazy, fun, obnoxious, and maddening all at once.  


I'm starting to blog because I don't get myself or other people and I just want an outlet for my ramblings.